I was taught how to meditate the TM way by an amazing man who has been meditating most of his life so it should have come easy to me.
But it didn’t.
I found it like torture from the inside out. It felt like an agonizing event that I had to endure and most of the time, I just couldn’t do it. So I shied away thinking that this form of meditation was not for me.
Until last night.
Last night, I was invited to join a special meditation of this teacher, who was celebrating 35 years in TM. They were having a group of about 15 people get together and share a meditation.
I was weary and not sure if I wanted to join but on the promise of a whisper in my ear, I agreed.
So I waited for my appointed time to join in their group. I went to my bedroom and fluffed my pillows. I brought in a new soft throw that I bought and I positioned myself with my back on the headboard and legs out in front of me. I laid the wrap on me and got comfortable.
I was prepared to try. I was prepared to endure. I was prepared for nothing but torture to happen at worst and at best, I could hopefully relax.
What I was not prepared for was to actually meditate.
I easily and quickly fell into a somewhat deep meditative place. It was not as deep as I have gone before but it was comfortably deep enough for me. It was easy and relaxing. I did have thoughts come into my head but they easily left.
I found myself in their living room. I was floating above everyone else because the room was packed with people meditating. There was no room for me. At my position in their room I was able to see out the windows and see the trees, the sky and the flowers. I saw their fruit trees and spent quite a bit of time in a peaceful balanced place of enjoying the view.
When I looked down beside me, I saw my friend Mai. She looked so peaceful and beautiful in her mediation. I could hear her breathing and I could feel her spirit but I could not hear her whisper in my ear.
When I realized that I could not hear her, it took me back to reality and I immediately left my meditation and her living room.
I was able to return to my meditation but I remained alone.
When I rose from my TM meditation I realized that I had been meditating almost exactly 20 minutes and it was quite enjoyable.
I am hoping that this is the new meditation for me. I am hoping that my previous experiences were based on my previous life and now that I am in a new life, I can continue to have this new, uplifting and relaxing meditation.
I will admit that I have not meditated today. I am not good at meditating with so much going on around me. It is so distracting and I am not proficient enough yet.
But I committing to meditating at least 5 days a week, when I am alone and I will work my way up to 14 times a week.
How is that for progress?
